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It's so easy for you to forget me? Its almost as though we didn't even know each other  or we try to forget what happened. But if so, why do you still pretend like you didn’t mean to call me, but engage in conversation anyway telling me it’d otherwise be impolite. Wasn’t it impolite for you to blame me and make me sit up all night going over all the things in my head over and over? Wasn’t it rude then? Relationships almost always baffled me more than maths and that’s something for sure.  

Or maybe it was all too real and you had to run away for something that wasn’t as challenging as us? Maybe a relationship with someone less opinionated or less “fussy”, in your words,  where you could start conversations with “whats up”. I’ve always hated it when you did that. if its really not that important don’t bother starting a conversation I wouldn’t mind, but small talks are something I’ve despised for the longest of times.  But hey, look what its all come to, here I am still thinking about us when we’re already over. The café down the street was not “our “ happy place anymore. I’m sure we must have had something that made me feel my butterflies every time I saw you, in person or through a screen but well nothing lasts for ever, and you asked me to move on and then you were gone.

Here you are ready to move on with someone new and you asked me if that was okay and whether we could still be friends, but I hate to say this but I can either be you mistake, your ex, or your boyfriend, and I can’t be all for I cannot exist in three places all at the same time, but this is the problem, I still explain us better in present continuous but to you I’m just one of the other boys that for had a thing for and now you feel nothing and I get it, actually I don’t because I’ve never been that person who effortlessly finds myself sailing from one relationship to another, for me if the ship has sailed, you drown.

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